My Apologies, Gaia



Well I came across a child of God, he was walking along the road

And I asked him tell where are you going, this he told me:

Well, I’m going down to Yasgur’s farm, going to join in a rock and roll band.

Got to get back to the land, set my soul free.

We are stardust, we are golden, we are billion year old carbon,

And we got to get ourselves back to the garden.


Well, then can I walk beside you? I have come to lose the smog.

And I feel like I’m a cog in something turning.

And maybe it’s the time of year, yes, and maybe it’s the time of man.

And I don’t know who I am but life is for learning.

We are stardust, we are golden, we are billion year old carbon,

And we got to get ourselves back to the garden.


By the time we got to Woodstock, we were half a million strong,

And everywhere there was song and celebration.

And I dreamed I saw the bombers jet planes riding shotgun in the sky,

Turning into butterflies above our nation.


We are stardust, we are golden, we caught in the devil’s bargain,

And we got to get ourselves back to the garden.


I may be a fool, in light of several web sites, I may have jumped the gun. It may be my training, my body of information, but I still see the basic information in the LoO as a foundation to understanding something about the bigger picture.

I am not as hopeful as Greg and Michelle over at,

or as big picture/mindful as the guys at,

or as correspondence minded as DW at,

I am a financial idiot, So I read Fulford,

and I love exo-politics, So I read Salla,

I am just me. These are the people whom I read on a daily basis, who inform my world. I like each and every one of them because they feed my own world view…. my quantum box.

In my last article I was not very kind to mother Gaia, and really, I like this planet. I just don’t like people who do things like kill a national treasure for fun and think they can get away with it, or put fire crackers in a puppy mouth and light them because they thought it would be fun… These people need to go. They need to find a nice little rocky planet they can destroy and play the game of domination on ALL BY THEMSELVES!!! I love this planet, she has nurtured me though a lot of time, and I am frustrated and angry about the current situation on her skin and in her heart as ‘those’ people continue to ruin her.

And Yet I see no solution, since our Solar Logos has determined that this system is a free will system. My heart breaks for us and the planet. And I see no action outside of yelling about it on the internet that I can take. That’s like yelling at children with selective hearing. MY hope is that when/if this waveX hits, it at least opens some minds to the other intelligences that live here, so that we will know what is being done and some of us can stop it. This Garden of Eden, this earth, (yes, the whole planet is the garden) needs to weeded. And it needs to tended with loving care.


I hope soon we can live up to the task at hand!


(and yes, there is a song for everything…) lols

Help This Planet!!!



About two years ago, maybe three… I Joined Kosta Makreas’  CE5 group. Once a month at the closest weekend to the  the new moon, a world wide group of people attempt and accomplish, to make contact with positive ET’s. It is just amazing how it works when you follow the protocols! To that end, I am publishing a new letter from Kosta explaining why doing this NOW is so important. And if you read my last blog post (, you will know why I feel its imperative!

Dear ETLetsTalk Community,

 Our community continues to grow with hundreds more members joining in recent weeks! 

Today there are almost 5300 of us in more than 50 countries making daily, weekly and monthly ET Contact.

Some new members have asked me why are we so focused on making ET Contact and on building and growing The People’s Disclosure Movement?

My answer?

Speaking for myself:

In July of 2010, after almost 4 years of immersion in CE-5 training with a LOT of successful ET Contact, I knew there were hundreds, maybe thousands of people just like me around the world who were doing the same.

I had an inspiration: why not connect all of us into a coherent community?  Maybe that would synergize our efforts.

I asked my spiritual guidance if it was worth the time, energy and effort to “organize” so many on such a scale.

I was startled to receive telepathic communication from what I recognized by that time as an ET source:

“Create as many contact teams as possible, in as many places as possible, as soon as possible”.

..came the words into my mind.

“What will that accomplish?”, I asked.

“As more humans ask to see us in the skies, this will give us permission and opportunity to appear in many more places all around your world.  This will result in even more humans seeing us…who will then ask on a greater scale to see us.  This will allow us to appear in even more places, and so on.  We call this a ‘virtuous circle’.  Someday the evidence of our presence in your world’s skies will be too overwhelming to deny.”

I was startled at this information, yet very, very happy.  Their request was simple, clear and direct!

So I organized the very first “Global CE-5 ET Contact” monthly event in October, 2010…and almost 5 years later we continue to grow these events.  Two years later the ETLetsTalk web site was created.  Ce-5 groups began to proliferate on social media.  And still do!

Along the way, the ET message has continued.  They have told me:

“We are not Gods.  Think of us as elder brothers, sisters, and cousins.  We are family.”

I have also been given the understanding that we humans need to solve the global problems we have created through our greed, separativeness, hatred and selfishness.  Solving our problems is part of our spiritual growth as an evolutionary species.  It is our free will at play.

Yet there are some problems that have grown so large that we need some ET assistance.  During our ETLetsTalk “Global CE-5 ET Contact” monthly events we seek that assistance and we give permission for it.

My constant advice to our community is that we ponder on how to “co-create the New Earth” with our ET family.

Everyone is needed in this mission.  No effort at making ET contact and co-creating The New Earth is wasted!

I can’t speak for everyone in this community.  But I have tried to let you know what motivates me and gets me going in the morning. 🙂

The world is in crisis, but also in a stage of tremendous opportunity.  We are asked to step up and do our part.

And the really cool thing is that there are many, many Star Nations close by us who are seeking our cooperation in joy.

We. Are. Not. Alone.

That’s why I make ET Contact.







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Long Time Gone By…

Crosby, Stills & Nash – Long Time Gone Lyrics

It’s been a long time coming
It’s going to be a long time gone
And it appears to be a long
Appears to be a long
Appears to be a long time
It’s a long, long, long, long time
Before the dawn
Turn any corner
Hear what the people say
You know that something is going on around here
It surely, surely, surely won’t stand the light of day
And it appears to be a long
Appears to be a long
Appears to be a long
Such a long, long time
Before the dawn
Speak out, you got to speak out against the madness
You got to speak your mind
If you dare
Don’t, no don’t try to get yourself elected
If you do you had better cut your hair
And it appears to be a long
Appears to be a long
Appears to be a long time
Such a long, long, long, long time
Before the dawn
It’s been a long time coming
It’s going to be a long time gone
But you know, the darkest hour
Is always just before the dawn
And it appears to be a long
Appears to be a long
Appears to be a long time
Such a long, long, long, long time
Before the dawn

Curiously, where I seem to have the most problem with all the new information being revealed about the UFO’s and our position in the greater galaxy is, not with the material that Cory good presents but with spiritual component that goes with it, the question of whether the human race can ‘get it’, before it’s too late. The Lo1 ( Law of One) material is but another expression of the Bailey books in slightly less couched language and that was an expression of far older material from Egypt and other mystery schools. I have my doubts that the human race will be able even at this point, to be awake enough to make it out through this current gate way.

My own personal dream is to actually slay the gate keeper and open the door if not for everybody (free will… there is still choice, and some people do not either know they should/could choose and other’s don’t care to and yet still more chose wrongly or negatively on purpose) than at least for as many as possible and honestly, at least me. However, this being a consensus reality, my hope, yes hope… (and I know that means we think things are not rosy and are living there as if we are ‘hoping’ for something else) is that in some way we can make it.

I am trying so hard not to put an emotional gaius (judgment) on this, but is hard not to. It is hard to suspend emotion and simply observe because I so badly want to move on. I remember the fall of Atlantis. I remember dying in the tsunami. I was sitting on a very white cliff, talking with a teacher in a class of many. We were learning to fly in our physical bodies, and I looked up and out at the very azure ocean on a bright sunny day and noticed a very dark blue line on the horizon that was getting bigger as it approached. I looked at my teacher and said, “What is that? As I pointed out to sea. He was an older man with white hair and very blue eyes. He said, looking in to my eyes after looking at the sea. “I will see you again.” And then I died. Maybe that is why I cannot fly in any of my dreams…ever. And I have tried.

I remember being a druid, a Viking, a Tibetan priest, a Gnostic, I was a samurai, my son informed me we lived as American Indians together. I died in the western desert on a wagon train of heat and dehydration. I could never watch the old westerns with my mom when I was little, it always filled me with dread and heaviness. I remember dying on the titanic. There are probably many more and I can probably only remember the ones that keep me on my current path of learning/experience without giving away the current life lessons. I do know that I have been here since Atlantis… its been a long time gone, as the song says….

I do know, that I am tired, I want to move on. It’s time for it to be over. This endless cycle of use and abuse.  To that end, my little self, with a little help from ET friends at an early age woke up very early around five years old. I have studied many mystery schools this life time in an effort to finally get it right. I KNOW that the Law of One and Corey’s information are the closest to the real story that we have at this moment on this planet. I know in my gut and heart of hearts that it is right. I DO NOT NEED exterior proof. I KNOW that it is real.

To wit, I also know that the “THEY” of the world have us in a really tight spot and we desperately NEED to wake up, LIKE LAST WEEK! Last nights guest, Mark Dice,  on Fade to Black said some chilling things. In part he is right, it could be the time line we are heading for, but with a little help from the awake part of humanity and our ET friends, I hope it is not so. I don’t know about you, but I need to get off this rock, ascend to 4th, or go where ever is next.


What’s Go’in On??

“What’s Going On”

Mother, mother
There’s too many of you crying
Brother, brother, brother
There’s far too many of you dying
You know we’ve got to find a way
To bring some lovin’ here today – Yeah

Father, father
We don’t need to escalate
You see, war is not the answer
For only love can conquer hate
You know we’ve got to find a way
To bring some lovin’ here today

Picket lines and picket signs
Don’t punish me with brutality
Talk to me, so you can see
Oh, what’s going on
What’s going on
Yeah, what’s going on
Ah, what’s going on

In the mean time
Right on, baby
Right on
Right on

Mother, mother, everybody thinks we’re wrong
Oh, but who are they to judge us
Simply because our hair is long
Oh, you know we’ve got to find a way
To bring some understanding here today

Picket lines and picket signs
Don’t punish me with brutality
Talk to me
So you can see
What’s going on
Yeah, what’s going on
Tell me what’s going on
I’ll tell you what’s going on

I wonder two things:

Could the UFO Phenomena be the biggest psy-op ever?

It occurs to me that the ONLY way contact in the physical has ever occurred has been when SOME component of extended consciousness is used. This may be the ONLY real thing about the whole scenario. The rest of it could be a very well cooked show to keeps us, who would see through the rest of all the bullshit going on, from doing just that. SEEING it! For what it is , bread and circus…. #snakefarts

My only conclusion is to play the game: Wait And See. (hmmmmm waiting is so passive)

So, IF that could possibly be a massive psy-op, then so could the waveX mass consciousness idea.

But what if the waveX is a positive plant? What if enough of us believe it we can make it happen real or not? Yes, that would be good for us, maybe…. Like the song says, What’s Go ‘in On? The neg. side wants war, the positive side wants peace…


On a very fundamental level we are still being MANIPULATED!!!

However, if this is something we need to accomplish, then by NOT doing it we are only cutting our noses off to spite our faces, so to speak… (Oh, yeah, the wait and see thing will not work with this one…)

To Wit: I am feeling very manipulated, ultra-sensitive and ornery and like a cranky child past bed time, and I’m just done with all the shenanigans. It’s why you haven’t heard from me in a while. Somebody walked past me and gave me the ‘Gibbs’ head smack. I’m jangled and thinking, and not liking what is coming up obvious to me. I really have no alternatives, not even research, because if the above theory is correct, nothing I read will be anything other than more of the same crap-olla.

This pull-back-to-a-bigger-perspective thing I do, which lead me to the above sometimes sucks. But should this latest round of ideas prove to be more correct than not, I’m glad I’m hang’in with the faders in my latest bout of insanity…


That is all.

Quantum us…

Sunday, July 12, 2015

2:41 PM

Maybe the reason I can’t ever find my way out of the quantum box is because I AM the quantum box? A while back I wrote an article about Carlos Castaneda’s book: “The Active Side of Infinity”.

In it I had a diagram detailing the shaman’s explanation of our assemblage point and how it connected us to our place in the universe.cocoon

And this same assemblage/referent point was then mentioned the night that David Wilcock was on Jimmy Church the last time, just before CITD when I asked the question about the little lives and if they would be protected and they talked about not needing to move that point for the animals and vegetative life when or if they needed protection.

So enter the next Corey Goode update and the information about the Draco’s being infested with nanites, (which incidentally reminded me of the first ST movie and the probeillia always talking about the biological life forms infesting the ship). Further that realization leads to the I-should-have-had-a-V8 moment of ok, they are just as trapped as we are…. Which then lead to speculation about the size of the AI it would take to rule over multiple star systems. And that led to wondering if plasma fields and Birkeland currents might be involved in the structure of such entities (EU Theory ).

So in trying to find connections or look up the science behind this I ran across the description of the Bloch_SphereBloch Sphere, WHICH looks very suspiciously like the diagram from Castaneda….

So, could there be such a thing as a biological quantum bit… like humans, just like there are electrical quantum bits in a ( Like Jade2) quantum computer that is (probably by this time) self-aware?

That really, it doesn’t matter about the form because intelligence and self-awareness is ENERGY, and wherever energy is organized in whatever structure, it becomes aware of its self.


Once again I am reminded of the first ST movie….


It can’t be just a coincidence that all these people and all these intelligences from everywhere have all descended, all at one time to this singular point in this galaxy…. Unless the ‘Event’ is going to be so powerful, that everybody in the vicinity is going to be able to go with us….

Just say NO!!




Consensus Reality: what we individually experience goes into the minds of all of us from all levels both higher mind to sub-conscious mind.


When a number of us, say under 51% put conscious material into this field, by doing research and thinking about it, even if 51% are not conscious of it, it hovers in their subconscious mind close to becoming conscious, needing only a little push to get it to come into their waking consciousness.


On the other hand, if people are fed enough information, say through mass media, and it is labeled… fiction, that also goes into the subconscious waiting for the right triggers to make it active.


Every day we are fed scripts on how we are expected to play out the roles we have within the quantum box we all live in on this earth. Take for example Alex Jones’ June 20th rant…. He lays out an entire script for us to follow, tells us all how to feel and backs it up with his opinions on his handpicked articles from the internet. Can we say: Instruction Packet


Back to us, the awake, if we simply do our due-diligence, research and THINK about what we are accumulating, by NOT CONSENTING to the script we actually create the space for something else to happen (gee, maybe something better for us all) that will manifest. Because for ALL of us to wake up it will take 51% to reach the tipping point, but to simply foil the plans of the stupids out there it takes far less of us, because we are more powerful than we know.


If we, the awake, KNOW about the next whatever it is and we DON’T CONSENT we exert a very powerful effect on what happens next. We need to be aware of this and use it consciously. We need to resist the scripts embedded in the information and say no to the behavior they obviously want to evoke from us.


What was the famous catch phrase from the 80’s?



The Demons of Childhood

Monday, July 6, 2015

9:02 AM

demonI have been chased all my life by the ‘Something is There’ syndrome. When I was a child I got in trouble every night for making up every excuse in the book to not stay in my room after bed time. As I grew into a teen, it never went away or even eased a bit. All through my adult years, when I was alone for the night, or wasn’t exhausted from chasing babies, I was still aware of the ‘Something’. I still am.


As a child, when your exhausted parents tell you that “It’s all in your mind, dear, there are no such things as monsters or ghosts, now go to sleep!”, it just doesn’t cut it!! toto tooI took me a VERY, VERY long time to imprint the concept of White-golden light and Sovereignty in my being to where I could believe it, and therefore USE it to help myself. BECAUSE! Because children are not taught to be sovereign. They are not taught they are powerful, or they are strong. They are not taught any type of energy work, and too bad because their imaginations are so powerful that they could be flawless at it… Children are so very pure, so very brilliant, until this world gets ahold of them.


One of the gifts I tried to give my children was to listen to them when they said stuff like that to me, when the ghosts came and when what came out of their mouths was not in line with traditional beliefs. I went so far as to teach them how to use white-light around them for protection and I even made my son someghostspray ‘Ghost Spray’. (spray bottle of water with a few drops of lavender essential oil in it) I did all I could to empower them with an internal sense of power that was intrinsic to their beingness, that was NOT a cry for help from an OUTSIDE SOURCE!! From experience I knew that didn’t work too well…. I also told them over and over that NOTHING!!!, nothing could touch the ‘you’ that lived within their bodies. We still had some rough times, but I hope they had more tools to cope with their adventures than I had for mine. (I wonder if my soul sometimes thinks I have an extraordinarily hard head????)


glindabubbleThus my penchant for Glinda, the Good Witch from Wizard of Oz. I have always wanted her beautiful bubble of light. Let us just say that now, I understand that I have it, in the many ways on the many levels of symbolism that has. I had to, as an adult, learn many things and eventually approach backwards to the understanding I needed as a child. The demons, or whatever it is, are still there, always, but I am now safe. I so wish as a kid I knew then what I know now, but isn’t that the way of life, the very path that we travel because of life events, eventually brings us around to who we have become? And, when we honestly look at who we are, we wouldn’t change a second of what brought us to that point now.

glinda bubble2

Dream big my dears, because are you big.