Is it our insistence on time that keeps us locked into this 3 D world? Time being a perspective or mode of perception…vorticleOr, is it our insistence on seeing time as only one thing, operating in one way – linear? Because in 1D it is linear, in 2D its circular but in 3D its spherical and in 4D we will find out that it is a vortex or (vorticle? – is that a word?) A pattern is only valid when it fulfills:

As above, so below.

IMO, I also think that we will discover that it is entirely a choice in how we perceive it that makes it such, that it doesn’t take any extended abilities or mental/spiritual gifts – it’s simply a frame of reference. Here is why I say this, and I have to take down a notch out of the theoretical.

This world has an unwritten rule that says:

LEAVE MY REALITY ALONE! (don’t rattle the bars of the cage)

  • Don’t upset the apple cart
  • It’s the way things have always been done

( – don’t help or expand the thinking or the perceptions of the people in the cage, or they will discover they never really were in the cage, and above all, the next person who gives anybody the proverbial apple on that planet will exiled to the ninth hell.)

This is TRAINING! I cite the famous 5 Moneys Urban legend that originates from actual research.

A group of scientists placed five monkeys in a cage, and in the middle, a ladder with bananas on top.

Every time a monkey went up the ladder, the scientists soaked the rest of the monkeys with cold water.

After a while, every time a monkey would start up the ladder, the others would pull it down and beat it up.

After a time, no monkey would dare try climbing the ladder, no matter how great the temptation.

The scientists then decided to replace one of the monkeys. The first thing this new monkey did was start to climb the ladder. Immediately, the others pulled him down and beat him up.

After several beatings, the new monkey learned never to go up the ladder, even though there was no evident reason not to, aside from the beatings.

The second monkey was substituted and the same occurred. The first monkey participated in the beating of the second monkey. A third monkey was changed and the same was repeated. The fourth monkey was changed, resulting in the same, before the fifth was finally replaced as well.

What was left was a group of five monkeys that – without ever having received a cold shower – continued to beat up any monkey who attempted to climb the ladder.

If it was possible to ask the monkeys why they beat up on all those who attempted to climb the ladder, their most likely answer would be “I don’t know. It’s just how things are done around here.”

Does that sound at all familiar?

Source: This story, a modern day fable, was inspired in part by the experiments of G.R. Stephenson, found in “Cultural acquisition of a specific learned response among rhesus monkeys“ as well as certain experiments with chimpanzees conducted by Wolfgang Kohler in the 1920s. Over the years, it was pieced together to form the urban legend as it now stands. If you enjoyed this post, you may appreciate the similar Hundredth Monkey Effect.

From <http://www.wisdompills.com/2014/05/28/the-famous-social-experiment-5-monkeys-a-ladder/>

Below is a quotation from the experiment, in scientific Jargon: (sources cited below)

“Stephenson (1967) trained adult male and female rhesus monkeys to avoid manipulating an object and then placed individual naïve animals in a cage with a trained individual of the same age and sex and the object in question. In one case, a trained male actually pulled his naïve partner away from the previously punished manipulandum during their period of interaction, whereas the other two trained males exhibited what were described as “threat facial expressions while in a fear posture” when a naïve animal approached the manipulandum. When placed alone in the cage with the novel object, naïve males that had been paired with trained males showed greatly reduced manipulation of the training object in comparison with controls. Unfortunately, training and testing were not carried out using a discrimination procedure so the nature of the transmitted information cannot be determined, but the data are of considerable interest.” From <https://attheintersectionblog.com/2013/03/06/the-monkey-experiment-and-edgar-schein/>


Stephenson, G. R. (1967). Cultural acquisition of a specific learned response among rhesus monkeys. In: Starek, D., Schneider, R., and Kuhn, H. J. (eds.), Progress in Primatology, Stuttgart: Fischer, pp. 279-288.

Mentioned in: Galef, B. G., Jr. (1976). Social Transmission of Acquired Behavior: A Discussion of Tradition and Social Learning in Vertebrates. In: Rosenblatt, J.S., Hinde, R.A., Shaw, E. and Beer, C. (eds.), Advances in the study of behavior, Vol. 6, New York: Academic Press, pp. 87-88:” From <https://attheintersectionblog.com/2013/03/06/the-monkey-experiment-and-edgar-schein/


Now WHY is another matter altogether. Here we actually have to seek out the missing pieces of information (bananas) and figure out where they belong and why they were hidden. Then, using hindsight (is it really 20/20, or can that part be manipulated too?) we should be able to piece it together.

From our point of view – we who are indoctrinated with the extraplanetary life point of view, there is a huge area of exploration, not only because the trained monkey part of civilization is still beating up those that would look higher, but because we are just waking up to the fact that not everything out there even comes from this solid nuts and bolts dimension, but that it can be not only un-seeable, but unnoticeable by us in our normal state. There we get into the agenda of everybody who doesn’t live here and their reasons… Until we can actually accept that there are other people that live ‘out there’ we can’t even begin to see how that would affect the reality that we are immersed in on the planet and that, that reality is the cage.

If you have only one tiny segment of a puzzle from which to view a much bigger picture and that segment is a bit twisted up, your chances of being able to even theorize correctly about the bigger picture is nil, nunca, zero, nada… And even when you begin to realize that everything is all connected in a very weird, twisted way in trying to understand the bigger picture, without a prime piece of information you will still fail, miserably.


Are we failing?


Read this from Tiffany Fontenot

This is a wonderful offering. I’m sharing because with the raising of the vibe and the thinning of the veil, things like this are going to become the norm. Wish I’d written this!!!!


Reincarnation Life-Beacons from 911 and OKC Bombings Beckon Us Home

In a television series called The Ghost Inside My Child about children who are pulling through startlingly clear, re-searchable facts about their previous lives, there are a couple of very important episodes that I’d like to highlight here in light of our current planetwide growing pains. 🙂  In one of the episodes, a little boy who’s race is white this time around, was able to remember so much detail of his past life as a black female named Pam, that his mother was able to find a news article on the Internet about her death in a fire. Yes, the idea of reincarnation involves white people having been black, and black people having been white, and many other races, religions, and orientations.  We’ll revisit this concept here in a minute because it is very fascinating:):):)


Independence Day 2: The next big thing (ET war)

(spoiler alert)

Last night in a huge theatre with maybe 20 people in the whole thing, with 3D glasses and the whole-shamol, I sat and watched the entire movie. Half way through I was nauseated and ready to go, now whether that was from the forced 3D or the fact that I sat too close, or there was some underlying subliminal programing, or all of the above, I’m not sure, but, I made my self watch.

independence day1True to form the big alien hive-mind squishy (with ectoplasmic goo included) squid looking ET was a merciless foe, and the new and improved ship, power and size were mind bending, but really, it was the same old same old. At least this time there seemed to be far more tolerance for the crazies that actually knew what was going on – as if they were saying that extreme weirdness is now acceptable in the mainstream. Who Knew???

Ah yes, as Reagan had visionarily posited, Earth had had a whole 20 years of planetary peace (after the first attack in Independence Day), and had come back from literal, total destruction and had back engineered the ET tech – but without really understanding it… and on and on…So mankind is once again decimated to the point where the moral question of the total annihilation of another species is not even considered – except to kill ’em all!

When: Enter The Alien AI Super Being!

independence day2In a Super white Sphere with a Super nice feminine Voice, who is running from the same, super slimy, hive-mindy, squid-looking ET race. SHE is out looking for other races that SHE can augment and turn into a police force for the rest of the Universe to wipe out the ‘bad’ ETs. SHE came to help us and take some of us to her ‘school-planet’ so that we could learn to defeat them, but now the slimy hive queen has somehow recognized she was here on the planet and – well of course we just have to save her too. (because we are so naturally ingenious….right) I suppose we owe her that after originally trying to destroy her too.

Well here is the thing, the dis info…

Although the squishy ET bad guys did open a worm hole to get here, the science behind what they showed was all wrong. And for a ship to have that kind of mass and size the gravity would have to be counter balanced with that of earth – it would not come screaming-burning into our atmosphere like a freaking comet. Bad science there. Any technology that used a worm hole would have no use for a molten core of any planet – and would not have chosen an inhabited one when they could have secretly grabbed the one in Venus, say…independanceday4

So the purpose of all the shitty science here?

It was to set up the idea in our minds that:

  • The very earth is at risk from forces beyond our control.
  • To keep us always looking to gravity as the answer for propulsion and keep our eyes off zero point tech.
  • To set up artificial intelligence as a hero – not an enemy.
  • To once again glorify in US minds our role as police – forever and ever until the end.
  • With that in mind, we need a good space defense fleet to be built, just in case…

Further, any alien race looking to invade this planet without destroying it beyond usability would do so just as it is being done, over a course of thousands of years by adapting the indigenous life with genetic manipulation and life style controls that were so integrated and underhanded that nobody would ever notice and then by indoctrinating every one so they would never think to look.

Ta Dah!

Friday night lament

I am lost. I am lost somewhere in time where the old and the new are transposed upon each other and there is no transition, but much shaking and limbo. Caught between the old-then and the new-now. It almost doesn’t matter, the how of it, the when of it. Just that we get there. This floating distracted indeterminate time, this in between chaotic somethingness that has no name and no linkages, no connectedness, is sapping my soul.

It has no resolution, this old model, this take everything for granted until you break it model. This model that kills all the beauty here on this planet, that lays to waste all that is, that kills all sentience except that, that can fight back – which is EVERYTHING except the dominant race, us. There is NO fixing this mentality – this model of life. It needs to go. It needs to die. And it needs to do it NOW!

We have done nothing except consume everything that is in front of our noses. We have not replenished, we have not cared for, we have not thanked, or felt one iota of gratitude for all that has been laid at our feet. We have simply used it up till it was sucked dry of every gift it had to give without recognition or thanks for what we took.

This new paradigm, this hope of awareness and inclusion… it is on shaky ground. Why? Well, because we still can’t fathom a world that replenishes and loves all that it has. That replaces what it takes with new growth and doesn’t take life that is not willing to give it. We don’t have a bridge to that place. And I am afraid that to get there we will be paying a very steep price. A price that demands as much death and restructuring as we have caused. A price that so restructures our values that we cannot conceive of it yet, a price that will reduce us to our very basic beginnings…. Yet again. And I feel it coming. I feel it!

We are sooo damned stubborn that we are unable to give up the old structure to learn the new. We are so asleep and we don’t want to waken. Life is hard enough as it is. To ask more is too much for our feeble hearts to bear.

So, as in all things in this duality, there will be balance and it will happen whether we can catch up and help it, or by sleep, let it to turn into ashes because we refused to open our hearts and minds and eyes and help. Balance will always be maintained. It is universal law. Swing one way and you WILL swing the other. Law.

We are in limbo because we are not deciding! We have a very short time and then it will not matter. I am sad, because if we do not catch up, all that we know and love will die and transform before we say yes. I love this place and I love how Gaia has provided and mothered and loved us along. But like all children who refuse to leave the nest, we have a very short time to wake up and help, and then it will be out of our hands to decide…

My heart is breaking…and it is hard to breathe.


P.s. I try not to write when I feel like this, but in light of what is going on, I felt  I needed to say this. Take it as you will…

2D-3D or 4D-5D? Which will it be????

energy mist2So, now, as we apparently (the whole planet) are raising our vibration and can expect creative ability to manifest easier and easier, maybe it was a good thing that there was a ‘lock’ of sorts on our ability to believe in what we could do…? And of course, isn’t it just sad and normal at the same time that we can create negatively all sorts of nasty, but that we find it hard to create positively? That the natural direction of our thoughts when we get bored, is to be negative, that being frightened is fun??

The law is: Anything you concentrate on is magnified.

Call it whatever you want, Tulpas, imagination, high strangeness, we get a high, a buzz, off of being scared shitless. We do. Think Halloween, haunted houses, monsters, sky diving, mountain climbing, tornadoes, earth quakes, tv shows, movies, literature… speculation running rampant on the end of the world… The list goes on and on. But, do we have any ‘positive’ things that lend to that amount of emotional impact? That type of emotional high? Do we?

energy mist3We have all sorts of training out there on trying to do that: Course in Miracles, The Secret, Barbara Marciniak… The only thing is that it doesn’t produce the instantaneous high, that brain chemical soup that fear does… that ‘charge’.

Well, here is what I have noticed lately. It is far easier to create in frequencies we already embody. That is the negative stuff, the dark and scary things – the lower frequency things are already a part of our inherent frequency range. We embody it in our physicality in a harmonic range. The new higher frequencies that are becoming reachable to us are just as easy to create in, and can and do make huge changes happen, but the emotional component is much more refined. It doesn’t carry such a gut punch. energy mist8It filters over our physical bodies like a light mist, or a mist of rarefied light… either way, it is almost unobservable. Which, in a way is good, because we need to get used to extending our senses to this realm, we need to learn in baby steps what this is and how it works.

But the laws that govern creating are the same:

Energy follows thought – thought plus emotion manifests. Behind it all is the intent of the thinker.

energy mist5The new fifth and sixth density energies which are now observable and useable are already operating whether we ‘notice’ it or not. Once I got a hold of that idea and reached for that level, I increased my awareness of it. And because these levels are mostly mental/spiritual they do not respond to the “old ways” of creating. They do not need ritual intensification of directed emotion. They simply are. They may not be as much fun as the lower octaves, there will be no gut punch, no charge of fear and excitement, however, they are powerful, if not more so. Its why they have always been termed “subtle energies”… ahem

seven-states-of-consciousness-spiritual-development-skills-yanas-abilities1Nick Redfern was correct. Watch your thoughts, watch them create in your life and be careful what you create, because we will go through this phase as our frequency raises into the lower 4D, it will be like we all have our very own Montauk chair, and you won’t have anybody to blame but yourself…


Chakras, ZedPM’s and Reality?

Idea states – chakras – spinning vortexes – Zpinches – realities – frequencies…


Any time you have a manifestation of anything you have a vortex of swirling ZpE. (zero point energy)

kundalini2Which means that the ZpF (zero point field) is intelligent. Intelligence does not predicate consciousness. Consciousness is a state of being aware of yourself – or being aware that you are aware. That happens when you swirl intelligence into a vortex creating a distillation point. When a critical accumulation point is achieved, you have the spark of awareness and or the creation of matter – manifestation. There are more of these in our perceived reality than we know. Indeed, just the body alone has some 148 crossings of energy creating the 33 along the spinal column and the 115 in the limbs, feet and hands. handsThen the areas along the spinal column which are considered the major Z-pinches or crossing areas are called the chakras. These major vortexes each have a frequency, or idea state, or awareness balance created by the speed of their spin. major chakrasThere are many more to the unit we consider our whole self – at least in spiritual theory which poses that we are more than just this here and now and have a higher self (the next octave of frequencies above these that we can perceive) on many levels and a sideway component that manifests in parallel realities. https://alsionsbells.wordpress.com/2015/06/08/as-above-so-below-for-sue/


In the 7 major chakras of the human body, we have clusters of intelligent tissues we call organs that give rise to the physical systems that run our body without our conscious control. This correlation can be drawn also looking at our solar system as its clusters of matter around its various z-pinches, the sun. The sun exists/ rotates with/around a star cluster, which is part and parcel of our galaxy, which is a monstrously huge z-pinch. ALL of which is swimming in this energetic field of consciousness called the ether, or zero point field – our Universe. (Others like to call it the Electromagnetic Spectrum)


From this we can know that any change in this field can occur when information is sent through the ZpF. There truly is something called the butterfly effect. Currently, we know that our system, Sol, is going through an area of higher change – density in this field. We can see the evidence of this in the changes going on in every body in magnetic range of Sol (including our own bodies as we cluster on earth like the organs in our own bodies). I, as well of a number of other energy sensitive people, have noticed of late an intrinsic change in the feel of the subtle energy we work with. Some of us have noted that it not only feels different, but it also looks different in the mind’s eye and behaves differently! It has gotten clearer, faster, it looks more transparent, and feels like it is much easier to be directed by thought than ever before!

Now, back to the top statement: Intelligence does not predicate consciousness. Consciousness is a state of being aware of yourself – or being aware that you are aware. That happens when you swirl intelligence into a vortex creating a distillation point. When a critical accumulation point is achieved, you have the spark of awareness and the creation of matter – manifestation in the frequency range of the spin.

We often think that to have intelligence consciousness is required, IE that consciousness came first.

I beg to differ




noun: intelligence

  • 1. the ability to acquire and apply knowledge and skills. “an eminent man of great intelligence”


synonyms: intellectual capacity, mental capacity, intellect, mind, brain(s), IQ, brainpower, judgment, reasoning, understanding, comprehension;


From <https://www.google.com/?gws_rd=ssl>


There had to be enough information for the wake-up to occur. It is when you use that information – learn from that information that you become conscious. I have had a theory brewing in my head from watching the sun over the last couple of years. I think I have seen the sun modulate what energy it is sending out (CME’s and coronal hole emissions etc.) towards the earth. I theory is that the sun and earth are communicating about the awareness level of the life on the earth and are waiting/helping /wanting us to up our game before we can be brought into balance with the rest of the Sol system. That this is very important – our consciousness as a component to when this will happen. When there is enough of us to create a morphogenetic field that can include this information in our consciousness then by resonation the effect will spread to all.

So how do you control the awareness of the population of an entire world? So long as we are unable to collect information, apply our intelligence – and do not fight against, or at least do our own research on things, (oh say like… ET’s, our cosmic origins, agenda 2030) the we will not be consciously aware of them. They will fly right over our heads being unnoticed. Literally. So if they limit, lie and cover up, misinform, dis-inform and in anyway make what they are hiding impossible to perceive they are hoping it will stay un-conscious.

There are a million views out there about who’s version of what is right, and all of them, even the dis-information information, has snippets of truth in it. So it’s up to us to put out enough information, in enough ways, to flood – by probably the vibratory frequency of that information alone, the life on earth to bring the rest of us on the planet up to snuff, spiffy us up and get us ready to listen to what the sun has to say to us. I imagine the patience of that being has got to be stretched thin at this point, after five or six world rounds waiting for ‘us’ to get up to speed…

Lessons, Layers and the nature of Reality

In trying so hard to choose differently on a moment to moment basis, I sometimes feel a weight on my shoulders that will never lift. It is not easy to be an enlightened person – especially if you are faking till you make it… (One of the best ways to learn, I have heard) I can only surmise that I have a very long way to go. I apply a filter to my exchanges with the world. A conscious one that I have been practicing many, many, years. That filter says let not one word leave my mouth, one thought to go without being examined, be derogatory, hurtful or negative to any one, myself, included. Most days it is easy, I never leave this house except for errands.

When I do go out, I am bombarded. I fail miserably. When I see a loved one doing stuff I want to smack them for, I fail miserably. When I do a life review, I fail miserably. When I drive, I fail miserably. Mostly I spend a lot of time failing miserably. I am working on not judging others and myself, I am also failing miserably there too. I’m good a failing – and that makes me miserable. I guess you could say I’m good at being miserable.

I would like to stop being miserable, but then I would have to stop caring. I would have to stop wanting this place, this earth to be better. I would have to really harden my heart, and hate everybody. I can’t do that either. I would love to just make some sense of it, put it in some perspective. My whole life has been a search for the how and why of it. You would hope that as you age life in general would give you some clues.

Then you realize that there will never be a concise answer, that there will always be that confusion waiting to bite your ass should you forget your practice for one moment in time. So then you begin to ask why this should be such a problem.

Here are my thoughts:

Quote from Jimmy Church last night, “Nothing is as it seems.” Just as you figure something out, it morphs into something else. Once you perceive something and think you’ve got it locked down, it wavers and becomes something else. Just when you hear what you think is the truth from someone, you realize there is a back story.

For instance like me, the reason I took up the above practice, was to avoid creating more interpersonal pain in my life. Funny. My mother was raised by a Quaker, and even though she never said one thing out loud, her internal approach to life rubbed off on me. The only person who truly understands this is my son, and I think it is because my awareness of this rubbed off on him. I never ‘told’ him how to be. To these two people I have a depth of connection that goes far beyond words to some other place. And well, the rest of the world….

Nothing is ever as it seems. Everything has a back story, a machination, a manipulative purpose and a million layers to it. EVERYTHING. It is our choice to perceive any of those layers we desire, interpret that perception in light of our inner truth, and act accordingly. And, above all, Never, Ever assume that anybody else sees the world the way you do. If reality changes moment to moment in our own brains, it is doing so for everybody else too depending on which layer they are currently looking at, at any given moment. This means reality is not static. Reality is not a rock – unchanging in our perception of time (but not its own.) Reality then becomes a flow because our reality is built on our perception of time and how long things stay the same. And apparently, that is important when you are trying to manipulate events in your favor in an effort to stabilize what your reality is and the outcomes you wish in life… And this is how it all comes off. We are all compartmentalized, not just the black projects, or the secret space program, or the NWO, or the ‘others’. Until we can all share a common inner view point or at least a common lens our individual viewpoints of perception will all be slightly different from each other’s and cause misapprehension. We need a common lens and a better ethic. I say a better ethic because there are those out there who would if they knew how you saw your reality take it and drive it towards their own means… Which, actually is already being done to us. In light of all this, there are days when the weight of it all is just so great that,

well… beer.

If you meet Buddha on the road, Kill him…

A kōan (公案?)/ˈkoʊ.ɑːn/; Chinese: 公案; pinyin: gōng’àn; Korean: 공안 (kong’an); Vietnamese: công án) is a story, dialogue, question, or statement, which is used in Zen practice to provoke the “great doubt” and test a student’s progress in Zen practice.

From <https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/K%C5%8Dan>

On our road to waking up we must accept no masters, no greater than thous no better-thans. So, if on that road to enlightenment you meet Buddha do not bow.

Part of what will happen in this course of disclosure – and should happen- is the wrecking of all gods, all others that offer to ‘fix’ us or the situation.

We are talking about spiritual adulthood here. The type that arises from inside and knows. The type that has not been externally informed. The type that has no dogma or rules except that of the recognition of the heart.

We on this earth have with in us all the ‘powers’ we will ever need, should we choose to access them. Wise is the person who sees and recognizes the walls that have been built to keep us from the recognition of our own divine nature. We are slowly becoming aware of this as the cultural memes can attest.

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There is a very sly fight going on right now for the sovereignty of all of us. A technological war that if won, will give us all the ‘powers’ we could ever want – even though we already have them, but refuse to look at them because of training. If and when they accomplish this, every last hope of a true spiritual human evolution will vanish forever.

There is a right use of technology, don’t get me wrong on this, but there is a much greater risk in jumping the gun and getting powers the easy way. https://alsionsbells.wordpress.com/2016/01/11/organic-consciousness-vs-viagra-consciousness-the-trans-human-agenda/

I reposted this on Face book today because I thought it was excellent, it also talks about how human kind has is backwards, we must save our own souls, we must grow up and we must do this post haste. http://howtoexitthematrix.com/2016/06/13/kindling-the-divine-spark-the-secret-to-awakening/. It links very well to the video below. This is some heady, heavy stuff, but you are up to it – I know you are

This is a very good interview by Kerry Cassidy of the Ruiner. I know he gave himself a bad name by the potent blogs he writes – but they are nothing more than the above Zen Koan. They are meant to awaken your thoughts, and thereby your perceptions. In listening I found that is he soft spoken erudite and wise. Please enjoy .


Fresh Eyes

It’s amazing. It’s hard and frustrating and yet, amazing to come back after a ten day absence to ‘normal’ life! The decompression runs a bunch of emotions through you. At least it has for me. I loved being in the desert at 29 palms and with my fader family! I can’t remember when I have had so much fun! I can’t remember when I have been so amazed at all the talents of each of you, all in one place! I can’t remember ever, feeling a unity so bright and beautiful with so many people! If I wandered around looking confused most of the time, it’s because I was overwhelmed with love and amazement for you all. Just looking at you all in the physical, the impact was stunning to me. I lost my words. I had to remind myself to keep my mouth closed, or as mom used to say, ‘the flies would get in!’

I keep up on what all the speakers had to say, It was cool to actually see them and shake their hands. Amazing there too. I spent a lot of time amazed. Because when you meet someone in physical presence – physical proximity, there is so much more there to notice. Tons more information. Like for instance, David Hatcher Childress, he is always so very teacher-ish on the show Ancient Aliens. In real life this man has more energy and fun rolling off of him, Oh my!! Every time I looked at him I had to smile. He is so full of life and happy. So, seeing people in real life is chock full of so much more information.

Jimmy Church is one of those people too. I have never felt so much person, intelligence, crammed into a singular point of being. Ok, yes he’s 6’2″ (everybody is taller than me) but there is a mind and heart of a 70 foot giant in there. And there is an impeccable ethic of heart there too. I watched as he took the high road in situations, actually in every interchange I saw, with everybody and everything. I shouldn’t be so amazed, because that is all in his voice, but the impact of the physical presence – the reality of it was stunning. I consider myself very fortunate to know this person and, that he counts me as friend. Wow. Just WOW!

Rita… There are just no words for Rita. The quiet understanding – that misses nothing! This is a very old soul contained in a short person body (like mine…lol) that sees all and knows and understands all. It was the privilege of a life time to meet her. It was a joy to look into a pair of knowing deep eyes in person. She has my heart and my profoundest respect forever.

The magic that happened at Faderhaus was off the planet. Oh yeah, and the food!!!! We can COOK!!!! Faders can really cook!!!! WOW. We can also really drink….lmao Who knew chilled Vodka shots were so dang delicious? I don’t know how I stayed awake till 5 am (eastern time) three nights in a row, but I did. I was drunk on us – the faders, our guests. I had so much fun!!

Speaking of guests, Sunday night just rocked, all because Jimmy (my hero!!!) invited some friends over. I was delighted to really meet Richard Dolan and Mike Bara!!! Corey Goode is exactly what he says he is, and he is a wonderful gentle person to boot. David Wilcock covers a very sensitive side with all his humor. To say he is an old soul is an understatement, he is ancient. There is no better combination than intelligence, sensitivity and humor. My thanks to Javier for hauling all of his night vision equipment and cameras to the Faderhaus so we could all have our own personal night vision CE5 (meet up) with the crafts and the peoples in them, gratitude to them for showing up!

I don’t know how 4 days could have been more perfect in my book of extraordinary experiences. So yeah, decompression next, back to the mundane, real world, with fresh eyes, and maybe some changes to be made for, what I have seen and the people I have touched and the experiences I have had, have changed me forever.


We were all meant to be here…



There might have been things I missed

But don’t be unkind

It don’t mean I’m blind

Perhaps there’s a thing or two


I think of lying in bed

I shouldn’t have said

But there it is


You see it’s all clear

You were meant to be here

From the beginning


Maybe I might have changed

And not been so cruel

Not been such a fool

Whatever was done is done

I just can’t recall

It doesn’t matter at all


You see it’s all clear

You were meant to be here

From the beginning

You see it’s all clear

WE were meant to be here

From the beginning…


It has taken all of us, the good, the bad, the beautiful, the ugly, geniuses, the broken, the fixed, the white hearts and the psychopaths.

It has taken all of us to arrive at the doorstep, the gate, through which we will pass, now, at this moment. Every last one of us to get here. Every. Last. One. Of. Us.

For we have all played off each other in this game of awakening. We have needed our nemeses. We have needed our angels. We have needed each and every soul here at this time to create this dream. Every last scintilla of source that has shown up for this birthing. To create this song of what it means to live, breath, feel, create and express for source the beauty of it all.

Whether we have failed, or won, whether we have loved or hated, whether we have been kind or horrible, we were meant to be here. The source makes no distinction.

WE are all needed in the weave – the fabric of expression that is existence.


You see it’s all clear

WE were meant to be here

From the beginning…