Hello karma, is that you?

Sometimes it seems like karma is more like operant conditioning than actual learning.

Operant conditioning (also called “instrumental conditioning“) is a type of learning in which (a) the strength of a behavior is modified by the behavior’s consequences, such as reward or punishment, and (b) the behavior is controlled by antecedents called “discriminative stimuli” which come to signal those consequences …From <https://www.google.com/?gws_rd=ssl>

Maybe karma is the lowest form of learning. Push and get pushed back. Action/reaction. Only on this world, you must learn without remembering one life to the next, having no idea (except speculation) of why, how, when you created what you are trying to live though and learn from. Somehow to me, it’s like getting slapped out of nowhere and not knowing why and never having enough time to put the puzzle pieces together, to make any sense of it.

And the best response to all of it, from all the literature, is to try to walk through the flames unscathed with some sort of understanding like smoke curling around you as you emerge.

But then what – lessons intact?

But then what – waiting for the next hit?

But then what – accumulating a rich layer of ash?

But then what – THEN WHAT??

Does it ever stop? Do the planets ever stop rotating? One wonders if it is this way on every world out there in this 3D phase. At least I do, but if emotion is energy in motion then, no it doesn’t stop, ever. Unless you decide to practice the Buddhist way of balance, of no attachments, and to me that is also not possible because I was born with the imperative of ‘I love.’

This is where the ‘free will’ – karma system(?) comes off as operant conditioning To me it is barbaric.

It is written somewhere in the annals of time that those we love give us our greatest lessons. I do not know how to function this way. I just don’t. It is easy to walk away and take your medicine with people you don’t love. You can just look at them and the circumstance and say, “Thanks for that.”

The first law of thermodynamics is a version of the law of conservation of energy, adapted for thermodynamic systems. The law of conservation of energy states that the total energy of an isolated system is constant; energy can be transformed from one form to another, but cannot be created or destroyed. First law of thermodynamics – Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia (karma???  Is that you?)

But with those who live in your heart, it is impossible to just let them pass through and let go. These are the ones you walk through that fire for. They are indelible, they never fade, even if you never see them again. There are places in the heart they will always live.

Which brings me to the capacity of the human heart. The heart that breaks, is the one that actually works. Because it can only break if it is functioning. As much as I would like to get out of here, off this world, out of this stupid idiotic, nonsensical place, I am beginning to have serious doubts if it will be any different someplace else. Karma strikes me as one of those laws of physics: every action has an equal and opposite re-action. Is there a place in this 3D manifested universe where this doesn’t occur? A niche where the laws of physics stop working? I think not. – not even as far away as you can get. Even so, were you to go there, there would always be those places in the heart where those dear ones live, regardless of where or when you went. Regardless…

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