Latin| Re: again cognoscere: know
June 4th at 4 am: full bright moon, with Saturn and Jupiter flying behind like a tail on a kite…
It would be too soon for every point in time to become now in the universe – too soon for that type of convergence, at least for me. The diversity, the many nows are all too fascinating, so I guess, until I am all done experiencing them I need time. Time to explore different constraints and the talents, the knowings, those constraints create.
I often wonder where-when-who my parents are now. If they are reborn, or if, because it’s all simultaneous – it’s a weird dichotomy for someone who is in time to try to configure in their brain. Outside of time all is now, however, living inside of time expands a minute to minute awareness. Looking at my dog who is resting beside me and my garden, I realize that I am not the only one who is currently ‘inside time’. But reaching for the feeling of my parents I realize I can still feel their livingness somewhere/when inside me. They exist.
They say you choose your life – I chose an interesting one, not a peaceful or a happy one – but interesting. It has taught me much about compassion, sameness, forgiveness, loss and especially the many faces of love. I feel like I have sooo much more to learn, but I also feel like I just might have done what I came to do – this time.
I came in with a lot of wisdom – either that or I have had tons of help from lots of friends to know what I just seem to know. Grant Cameron talks about consciousness raising or opening experiences that include NED’s and ET or ED or paranormal contacts. I don’t remember having much of any of that, but I seem to know stuff that I don’t know how I know it…
For example the first time I ever heard of a sentient ship was I listening to an interview of David Adair by Kerry Cassidy – the very first one – years ago on a trip to Chi town and I was on I65 at 80 miles an hour crying because I remembered – I felt it so deeply in my soul it hit like a blow. It wasn’t just a reaction to the idea like, oh that’s cool – it was like a full frontal memory/knowing slamming into my awareness – I knew what that felt like and I loved it, in fact, I missed it terribly. Do I remember being taken up to the ship and being taught how to fly the craft? Nope! I remember knowing, valuing – loving even, being with an intelligence that was a craft, but I wasn’t abducted and taught that – it just ‘was’ in my being. I recognized the experience –
Something in me remembered.
This is how I ‘know’ stuff, all through my life. Many inner shaking things come to me that way. I recognized Adamski’s message about frequency domains (dimensions) when I read it. I recognized the alien message in Star Trek when I saw it – I knew it all my life, but Star Trek said it. I met the planet one ecstatic morning driving to work on a particularly gorgeous day when my heart was exploding from the sheer beauty of it, and I ‘felt’ the earth, The Gaia. Her.
Which makes me wonder if there is part of me in each frequency domain living a life there with all its experiences and this recognition I feel so strongly is a sort of a bleed-through? Unity of some of the selves? Which led me to consider: just like time is simultaneous, but we live within it so we experience it differently, if space wouldn’t be the same as time: everywhere is right here… it would make the simultaneous transition from place to place of these crafts and beings an easier thing to puzzle out, surely. It would almost have to be true if its true about time because: space/time – time/space.
Once I had a dream about learning to change my frequency to go anywhere at any time and I was terrified of not remembering how to get back to where I left – i.e.: getting lost. Really, I was worried and heart hurt about loosing those I love and never seeing them again. The lesson ended at that point – of course. Thinking about that dream I realized that moment to moment I change, yes, because of what ever experience/information/perceptions I had where ever/when I would go to, that I would be changed anyway, that I could never get ‘back’ to ‘from whence I came’. But time does this to us while we sit still moment to moment: we and all around us are different and can’t go back, but we don’t have to be lost. Nope, we don’t. What the heart loves cannot be forgotten and that is your beacon through time and space. Re-cognition/remembrance, love, perceptions, feelings. Connection. There is no back to, only love connects, so you can’t loose anyone. So, my parents are not ‘here’ but they exist because I can feel them inside me. They exist, just not in my current frequency focus. They are a different frequency.
So now I can understand how you travel dimensionally – if its everywhere just like it’s everywhen then you don’t have to worry about getting lost – you just recognize the when/where and it’s there because so are you. I can feel that in my gut – I ‘know’ it. I just don’t know how to ‘how’ it… but someone else will because if I can finally ‘get-it’ others have too and someone will figure it out – this was a big energy/download that was floating free in the air this morning… it gives me hope the planet it coming right along, despite a bad case of the hiccups.